right now, im typing this post with such grief. its so overwhelming. my mother told me to stay strong, when i told her about this, i cried. and she patted my back, and im so thankful to have parents like her.
when i look back at the first day of entering PHS, You were so kind and i wanted to be your good friend, until that person came into the picture,EVERYTHING i wished for faded away. You changed, My Dear Friend. And then, you never tell me your problems anymore.
I started to feel hatred, as i hear you talking about me behind my back, about my size, my personality, and who i associate with,but i tried to be patient. Now im at home, i'm having a fever, and you...are SO happy im not in school. Why? I cried... my emotions and advise never reached you.
What do you want from me? Do you like to see me suffering? Do you want me to end up in depression like my sister? Do you want me to feel remorse for what you think offended you? Do you hate me?
I can tell the answer is "Yes." I want to hold onto you forever, but its impossible. I wanted to be you "True Friend" like you said i was, but its impossible. EVERYTHING i wish for will NEVER happen now. Because you hate me.
Why am i writing this post? i want my feelings to reach you. i want you to remain my friend but its impossible. i just want you to stop making me feel so sad.
You dont feel pity. I can tell Rosa would be out of reach too. Your grades dropped. I am pinning the blame on your best friend. I said she's bad. You said she's not. Before, you said you hate her. Then when someone asked you whether you hate her, you said " last time, but now not so much."
all i want from you...is to stop making me fall into that dark pit of depression. little by little, my patience ran out. little by little, my tears keep blurring my eyes. little by little, i AM falling into depression.
You may think im over-reacting, but its all true. I have 3 friends i keep depending on: Samantha, Hannah and Shi Min. They are so..loyal and kind to me. they give me courage. But as soon as im ready to pick myself up, you push me back down, with every word you say.
I cant see properly, the old image of you is stuck to my head. My self-confidence is slowly fading. My happy self you see in school, is not my true self. im so sad...so grieved... so...unhappy.
Help me please! please just leave me alone. get out of my life. i dont want to feel hurt. I AM SELFISH. I AM COWARDLY. because the pain is too unbearable.
MENTAL-TORTURE. that's what you're doing to me. i never expected that my mind will be in chaos. i thought i've got the hang of it. but im still so sad.
Laugh at me all you want! i admit i AM pathetic. I dont care! I DONT WANT to care! just leave me alone. Just stay out of my world.
and if this doesnt work, I'll do my best. If i fall, i can pick myself up. I'd do it! i'll be courageous. and stand up to YOU.
right now, im typing this post with such grief. its so overwhelming. my mother told me to stay strong, when i told her about this, i cried. and she patted my back, and im so thankful to have parents like her.
when i look back at the first day of entering PHS, You were so kind and i wanted to be your good friend, until that person came into the picture,EVERYTHING i wished for faded away. You changed, My Dear Friend. And then, you never tell me your problems anymore.
I started to feel hatred, as i hear you talking about me behind my back, about my size, my personality, and who i associate with,but i tried to be patient. Now im at home, i'm having a fever, and you...are SO happy im not in school. Why? I cried... my emotions and advise never reached you.
What do you want from me? Do you like to see me suffering? Do you want me to end up in depression like my sister? Do you want me to feel remorse for what you think offended you? Do you hate me?
I can tell the answer is "Yes." I want to hold onto you forever, but its impossible. I wanted to be you "True Friend" like you said i was, but its impossible. EVERYTHING i wish for will NEVER happen now. Because you hate me.
Why am i writing this post? i want my feelings to reach you. i want you to remain my friend but its impossible. i just want you to stop making me feel so sad.
You dont feel pity. I can tell Rosa would be out of reach too. Your grades dropped. I am pinning the blame on your best friend. I said she's bad. You said she's not. Before, you said you hate her. Then when someone asked you whether you hate her, you said " last time, but now not so much."
all i want from you...is to stop making me fall into that dark pit of depression. little by little, my patience ran out. little by little, my tears keep blurring my eyes. little by little, i AM falling into depression.
You may think im over-reacting, but its all true. I have 3 friends i keep depending on: Samantha, Hannah and Shi Min. They are so..loyal and kind to me. they give me courage. But as soon as im ready to pick myself up, you push me back down, with every word you say.
I cant see properly, the old image of you is stuck to my head. My self-confidence is slowly fading. My happy self you see in school, is not my true self. im so sad...so grieved... so...unhappy.
Help me please! please just leave me alone. get out of my life. i dont want to feel hurt. I AM SELFISH. I AM COWARDLY. because the pain is too unbearable.
MENTAL-TORTURE. that's what you're doing to me. i never expected that my mind will be in chaos. i thought i've got the hang of it. but im still so sad.
Laugh at me all you want! i admit i AM pathetic. I dont care! I DONT WANT to care! just leave me alone. Just stay out of my world.
and if this doesnt work, I'll do my best. If i fall, i can pick myself up. I'd do it! i'll be courageous. and stand up to YOU.
HI! My name's AFIQAH a.k.a. IQAH. I'm from 1Endurance'092Endurance'10 from PHS. I'm random...uh...hot-tempered...I love to make new friends. feel free to be my friend ok?... My best friends are currenly Hannah, Samantha, Min Xin and Shi Min. I love love love love love love JAPAN! Im in love with Katekyo Hitman REBORN and NEWS!!!! WOOOHOOO!!! I love love love love Tsuna and YamaPi!! HEEHEE! WEll, If you guys wanna noe more about me, just tags! ^^ Peace Out!
contact
MSN | HP: 9*******(personal) I'll only tell you if ur my friend.
complaints
Im totally not liking Mr. Rumi...sheesh...might as well i join NPCC...
MILEY CYRUS SUCKS!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!! MATHS IS KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wishlist
A Yamamoto File(then, i'll have all three files! Tsuna+Goku+Yama=WOOT!
MORE BOOKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEW CHAPTERS OF DENGEKI DAISY!
